实习医生格蕾第五季

从大一到大五。
从第一季到第五季
以前一直觉得老友记是个奇迹。
十年是个奇迹。
现在发现，时间不是个奇迹。
岁月如梭才是个奇迹。
好在，我们都一直在成长。
喜悦，悲伤，苦难，尴尬，疲惫，犹豫，愤怒，无奈，这一切都让我更加感激上天赐予的生命。
谁说只有快乐的人生才值得度过？

                            --------2010-4-25

It feels so good to stay at home all day watching the shows you like. I can't complain about anything right now. 'Cause I actually feel really good, even my toughest anxiety becomes forgettable. I've finally got the chance to finish GA Season 5 today, and after that something drove me so hard to recollect the show from the very beginning as well as recollect the pieces of my life.
　　
　　When I first started watching GA, I've never thought it would mean this big for me. Some shows just not only the entertainment of our life, they're like friends who knew you at the first place and still they're always there giving you a shoulder to cry on. They carry our memories, histories and feelings. GA is the one for me. Maybe it's not the greatest show ever, but for me it's significant. I've been growing with it. I've been growing as every character does. I've been growing with a heart dark and twisty.
　　
　　It is true that when something begins, you generally have no idea how it's gonna end. The future is never what we've imagined.
　　
　　Back from the beginning, Meredith was asking her good looking one-night-standed partner with amazingly attractive hair to leave with a corny embarrassment revealed on her smiling face; Christina was confidently asking about being "selected as the best intern" and whining about Izz's former part time job as a model; George had never gave up being nice or getting close to the others, but he was taken as a joke; Izz was told to do the rectal examination and can't help making her face when she stuck her fingers into the ass of a patient; Doc. Baily was wearing her mushroom head which is subject to very popular criticism even today; Here comes Burke, the perfect guy who resolutely left his fiancée in the wedding ceremony and us in the middle of the show...
　　
　　We can't tell who's the best at the beginning. Meredith lost in the hospital; George panicked in the surgery room being watching and betted on by the other interns, and he got a creepy name "007"; Izz got Baily pissed off by interrupting her nap for a patient who needs antibiotics rather than the reason that someone was dying; Alex was just an arrogant rude jerk.... And I've been there before, panic, complain, lose, freak out, be silly, cocky, selfish and inconsiderate... or even worse. I can't tell whether I can handle my life rightly and bravely at that time neither.
　　
　　None of them have imagined they would become family of each other; None of them have predicted those pains, struggles, changes or those life and death things injected in their life; None of them have realized and expected those massive magnificent changes happening everyday around them; None of them have ever thought they would become this strong to handle the pain, the loss and departure. Just as what Izz said at the last "you don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it." We don't recognize anything until we're actually experiencing the most of it. Their life keeps growing deep. So does mine. And I'm growing deep too. I don't run away like before, I face things, I stand up on my own, and I handle them. GA is showing and witnessing the histories and changes of my life too.
　　
　　In GA, hospital is a battlefield, and doctors are soldiers. They don't surrender, because they can't. They've been working their ass off for saving lives, or not that great, just for avoiding mistakes and killing. But what they're doing is sacred. All of the stories going on in this show carry only one clue ---- take the time to treasure. I'm gonna quote the last voice-over in the end of Season 5, and I'm gonna ask myself and everyone else who reads this article:
　　
　　Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life..." Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work toward it, but every now and then, look around, drink it in. 'Cause this is it. It might be gone tomorrow.


【拼写错误已修正，见谅】

一直挂在Christina房间里面的风扇安静而淡定，它悠悠的转着，但它好像也是一颗藏在人心中的地雷，不光光是hunt，也不光光看izzi和George。
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浮躁而跃动的人生是会被时间沉淀成最真挚的痴情，derek去求婚求市政厅也抵不上一张即使恨我也要爱我不管我臭我丑我老这样烂俗的誓言。grey发现想去忘记derek逼到自己去看心理医生发现自己再怎么去逃避生活去忘记母亲爱到深处的欲自杀，她也要放下自尊去和derek面对面一次又一次去实验她的手术也是一种对爱的尝试，当最后一次肿瘤中植入病毒成功，香槟是两个人对彼此爱情的肯定不仅仅是一次成功的临床手术。而蜡烛造的一个房子抛开母亲的日记本是grey要准备迎接生活抛开腐烂的家庭的诠释。
Christina的婚礼戏剧性并且也在意料之中，离开burke的Christina在浑噩之后遇到了红毛性感的hunt。Christina犹如一朵战火玫瑰，不在战场却时刻用锐刺保护自己的自尊心咄咄逼人但却柔软地把情感赤裸裸袒露在荆棘之下。hunt离开胆小怯懦的未婚妻找到Christina我竟然觉得如此有爱，Christina在hunt面前从不说burke，她不想被同情但她好像又身处于burke离开她之后会遇到的那个女人。所以她吞吞吐吐把“我爱你”说出来时，是把一切抛之脑后毅然决然的沉入hunt的表现。
OK，最虐心的是izzi和denny和Alex和George。中间我一度觉得denny的出现很烦人，既然死了就不要出现既然选择离开就不要喋喋不休，选择暗处看着izzi幸福或者悲伤不好吗？可是当癌症的剧情出现的时候，我有些同情denny，他在天堂和地狱里来哄着眼眶一遍又一遍对izzi说“I come for you "，denny眼睛闪亮而真诚他是在频死的izzi面前想要留在她的身边即使因为那一颗肿瘤，他是izzi的情人是沙滩上蓝天下那一抹最美的幻境。而George是好友，是婚礼上扶着izzi最真挚的朋友。最后一集真的被虐哭了，去参加晚会的izzi一袭盛装电梯之后是戎装在身的George，临死前想到的竟然George！！浓稠却也清纯的友谊，像那一瓶不该喝的红酒。Alex是个好男人，始终背着母亲往事活着所以他畏惧也习惯照顾女人，他发狂也是有理由的，他渴望一段安定的感情却被生活玩弄的体无完肤。<图片1>

Alex在手术室里拿着心脏除颤器准备电击，倒计时的3s终于证明他的诊断是对的，他却全身发抖僵化到完全不能行走，那个镜头真心全季最戳泪点~哪怕生活把你的勇气压得粉碎，有那么一刻你孤注一掷，你不被信任、被否决、为权威所抛弃，但你还是要坚强，战胜内心你最为恐惧的自我的反对声，告诉自己，要坚持。因为当你再也不用恐惧内心的自我反对，那份被自我所证明过的喜悦，才最显弥足珍贵。

“Did you say it? 'I love you, I don't ever wanna live without you, you changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work for it, but every now and then, look around, drink in it. 'Cause this is it, it might all be gone tomorrow.”

Yang明明长了一双在亚洲人眼里近乎可笑的豌豆眼，可是她有美丽的头发，光洁的面庞，她念顺溜的台词，你认为她就是Doctor Yang，她不可能是一个演员或任何人。

那个才华横溢，最有野心的人。她吃饭的时候往嘴里塞的最多的是条状的红萝卜，一边吃还要一边发表她纠结的言论，永远是用最快的速度分析出事物的辩证性，如果没办法做决定就红红眼眶，烟视媚行的离开。如果觉得理直气壮占了道理，就雄赳纠气昂昂的奔赴战场。（病床与手术台之间）

我承认我抗拒不了。我抗拒不了太多的东西，little Grey的photographic memory,Arizona的方下巴和她身上小甜甜与御姐气质并存的范儿，Callie的大眼睛和红唇....

所以我不可能离开这部剧。